This web site's subtitle 'True Orgasm Experience. Have You?' is not
mere ornamentation, at all.

One of my goals of this web site is that telling about true tempting rush
and true orgasm to m'ladys via S&M play. Let me share you a interesting story.

I had a girl friend.

There was no S&M stuff between us. Just a girl friend, with normal sex.

There is aspiration to do S&M play with her, but I couldn't tell her about
that since I was too young to broach that to her. I feared breaking up us,
so I made love with her only normal way.

My sincere affection to her made me a devoted caresser

Start with tonsil hockey, forehead thru cheeks, scruff thru redloch,
and upper arm thru the pit.

But every once a while when I was reaching to her armpit she said
"no, please no...." She waved me off gently and closed her arm.

Is that tickling sensation?

I never insist doing there. But her rejection brought me much more desire
for enjoying her armpit with my tongue.

In the meantime, we had the first summer between us.

Then I understood the why she didn't allow me there. I mean the armpit thing.

She'd felt sorry abut her gapo, smell of armpits.

She'd never mentioned about anything about that but I got that with my hunch.

I didn't care about that much since I loved her so much.
But, I wasn't able to say "It's doesn't matter" casually
since I also had awareness of person's congenital defects issues.

However, I wanted to do armpit thing so badly.

I thought that "How should I do?"

I would hurt her if I forced to.

I thought this and that, but finally I made a decision.
I was going to tell her about my trauma.

A heart to heart communication, if you might say.

I had a big sigh of re-leaf as I talked about that to her
even it was the toughest experience I'd never had
since I felt more deeper feeing with her.

I thought it is enough for me if she wasn't accept me.

"Do you have something you still couldn't tell me though?
I would like to hear it." I'd take a bet moment and then asked to her
in order to share this warm and deep feeling that could not putting into word.

She hesitated a couple of minutes.
"Would you be still loving me after I told about something?" Then she breathed
softly. An expression of concern crossed her face as the moment.

"I shall!!" I replied her promptly. I lit my cigarette and waited.

As my expectation, she was telling me about her armpit issue.

She said she was so afraid of that meanwhile our dating and making love.
She confessed she wasn't herself.

In summer time, out side was toughest, she continued.

Fondling there? Lick? No, cannot stand it.

She told me the every single inch about all the way of her inferiority complex.

I didn't say anything but listened.

I saw her tears after the story.

"It doesn't matter, honey. I can embrace anything belong with you.
You should believe me and tell me first." I said as I dried them all.

Deep from my heart.

Some emotion had blown on us. We made love, with heat.

After the blow we huddled together and drifted lazily on the reverberation.
I took her upper arm to open and moved to her armpit. Try to be kissing there.

"No. Please, no... "

"Honey, I already knew it..."

I forced to caress there with my lips. Gave a shower of kisses.

She didn't wave off longer. I thought our confession opened her mind.

"God! How could you? Why could you? Is that right?"
She's going with unbelievable-thing expression.

"Honey, I love you. I love your every thing. This part is also you, right?
I'd like to love here as well."

I replied and gave a shower of kisses.

I'm not sure how long I did that.

She's crying with pleasure. "Thank you, thank you. I'm so happy with... ."
She said as she shed big drops of tears: she grabbed my hair
and was going to wild with the sensations.

Since then, I do the armpit stuff at fore pleasure.

That turns one of the favorites after this episode
even she used to refuse it so hardly.

Actually, this episode has an after words.
The other day, "Oh, yes... yes, coming" she moaned as I did the
armpit thing sedulously as usual.

She said so.

"You sure?"

I didn't get that.

I didn't inserted yet, I didn't do anything even I didn't touch her clit.

How come she's coming with only armpit thing? I thought.

She's breathing heavily and twisted her face with pleasure as I glanced at her.
I grabbed her body tightly and pushed to me in order to nuzzl against her
armpit, to lick there more nasty manner.

"Oh, God... yes... yes... yes... YES! YES! YEEEEES!!"
Believe or not, She cried so and dropped off like passed out.

"Did you come down? You sure?" I asked.

She actually blacked out.

I saw her orgasm shudder. Yes, she came downed.

She came downed harder than our usual sex.

I popped the hell of cigarettes until she got her consciousness.

Time flies.

You know, I can tell you something with confidence.

Way back then, I had some desire to do S&M secretly but I could not
and didn't have any chance to that. But, I can tell you now that the episode,
the act and the supersensual relationship, means THE S&M.

It isn't easy stuff.

It is the core, if I might add.

The day, the moment, we are the center of the whirlpool.
We saw, we touch the pleasure directly.

Okay, introduction has been finished.

But from now on, I'm gonna stop my hand and just ask you this.
What should you do as you are a Jane M or Joe S, specifically?

This episode gonna be the core of the S&M spirit.
It is not cool thing if I go thru about that here.

I think you guys, who have red thru to here, already got various emotion
or thinking about this story.

I believe it's enough to.

She's still sending air mails to me, from America, occasionally.

Some times with some snap shots in there.
I can see her friendly smile. Little bit plumpy but still lovely.

Every once a while I'm placing the new picture to the next of her old one,
I'm remembering the day, her tears, the cry, and the breath.

I thank her.

I never thank her enough.

She gave me, she taught me irreplaceable thing.


Jan. 3, 2000 Shadow

translated by Peter Junk