Have you ever weigh the odds about the anticipated value of
the meet the best one for your S&M play style?

It isn't as low as premium winning of annual year-end's Jumbo lottery's
three million yen, but probably the probability must be incredibly low.

Even if you already have some master and slave relationship,
I believe some compromise there on one side. Isn't it?

Or each side has compromised, I guess.

The problem stems from the low probability of the difficulty
of the best matching.

Is there any possibility for the meet the new and better partner
if you break up now?

So we are trying to keep on going relationship although we aren't
fully contented.

Loneliness? Maybe.

The reason of what you are still seeing some one protractedly,
who isn't the best, is just you thought it nicer than you run
your little hope about meet your best master.

You can pick the one thru objectively such as looky, wealthy, hobby,
and so on when you are seeking your boy friend.
But in the case of S&M partner seeking, it doesn't work.

S&M things should more weight on the inside.

You could think 'Oh, he is cool' when you saw some cool guy on the street,
but I believe you never thought about like this way for your master.
Like 'Oh, he should be my master.'

Moreover, making about the conversation of S&M things need some closer
relationship between two of them since it's a sort of dark side of human
being even both have some feeling on S&M side, though.

I'm gonna say you've spent all of your luck
if you luckily met the ideal partner.

There are two questions.
Do you need the partner for the play?
Do you wanna do the play with him or her?
Yes, this gonna be a assignment.

The first question above I did needs some compromise and shares
the mainstream of getting partner now. S&M BBS stuff for instance.

As the counterpart of that, the parson, who is your boy friend or husband,
has some of feeling on the S&M things so you also get some influence
is the other one.

It is not easy thing, but I believe you can switch your boy friend
if you meet ideally more closer person, basically. But there are, little bit,
more emotional stuffs in the master and slave relationship.

You're endearing him even you aren't satisfied with some lack.
He embrace you and support you, right?

Therefore many m'ladies are serve him faithfully, with her manliness,
until he abandon her.

This is the why she is the m'lady and what we love.
But, why don't we bit dig into the right of m'ladies?

Oops, I can hear many scorch from you masters to this opinion,
fuck yourself thank you, and I'm gonna go thru this.

Look this. Explosive popularization of the Internet opens the door to
the dark side or maniac world at the living room of your sweet home.

I cannot judge it good or bad, I can tell you it brings inestimable
advantage to us, S&M side people.

Now, you're reading this is also one of the boons.

There are more opportunity to find someone to play that used to be.

What I wanna say is you have to have a new understanding about
seeking your partner.

Think about your right, and you should be bit picky more.

Take your time. You should.

Once you get the relationship with some master,
you could not get away from easily. I mean mentally.

It's not On-Sale thing.

My heart bleeds every once a while I heard about miserable story
form m'ladys even we didn't know well each other.

How come so many m'ladies are still in the dusty life even they have
such a great inborn predisposition? I cannot get that.

There are so many women. They are smoking while walking and
speak loudly without feminal manner. The true Japanese woman or
feminal grace of bearing is no longer exists.
But I believe you m'ladies are such a endangered precious species.
Who still keeps that manner and spirit.

There are many girls who get much attention form guys with their bazooms or
shapely style, but I don't need that shit any more.
I believe and am gonna tell you that there is nothing more than
your incomparable charm.

I hope every single m'lady's happiness, always.


Jan. 4, 2000 Shadow

translated by Peter Junk