Like an annual parade, there are bunch of pro-baseball players'
contract-depo stories on papers' sports section around this season.

Glimpse of the story, I wonder could I get a major seat, it's not
even star one, if I earnestly did baseball thing; even I forget own
qualifications.

On second thought, I haven't done baseball but have done S&M things,
keenly as such.

As the result, I got great experiences and met great broad of
people as well.

I convince I've enjoyed an abundant life, I mean mentally, since I took
my stand in S&M side; it's rather important than money things.

No. I have to say it more than that.

I'd like to be a forerunner of this brilliant world for newcomer Jane Ms.
I'm taking a task about maintaining this site, but it's kinda fun.

There is nothing more pleasurable thing than what I can see and feel
Jane M's growth first hand thru e-mails, phone, or actual sessions.

Old saying goes: We tend to be good at those things we like.

I'm absolutely fascinated with irresistible attraction of Jane Ms, tell
you the truth, I'm a person or a buff of whom deeply attached to Jane Ms
rather than a master.

Please don't misunderstand me. Even if I violently grabbed your hair
to stuck my member into your throat deeply, or bound your arms behind
them and stare coldly your tortured expressions, what I did is based on
love and heartfelt gratitude for your choice about me from line of Joe Ss;
I made affectionate caress in my hear.

Since it becomes a possible reason for emotional dependence, I believe
the stuff that I above mentioned is not good manner of us. But I also
believe that there should BE stable mental relationship.

I will S&M, but won't gyp.

These are looks like similar, but one has faith and another doesn't.
They should be distinguished by there mental relationship is or not.

The reason of what I'm writing note or column like this is I want to
make sure what I'm doing and distinguish two of them.

So, I'm issuing unilaterally first.

If we get together some day, I'm gonna give you an array of orders with
callous tone that you suppose could not handle them. You'll want to turn
your face away from such shaming.

Please, please do not forget about my faith, underneath of my icy face though.

I shall tell you I love you all Jane Ms.

Wish no, hope, I'd like to share your story with.


Dec. 6, 1999 Shadow

translated by Peter Junk